I tried to calm my heart, to slow my breathing, to clear my thoughts. The rays of the sun were gently reaching for my face through dancing trees. It was calmingly peaceful, but mindfully distracting.

I had to clear my thoughts. You cannot force the world to resonate with your mind, you must let your mind resonate with the world.

I pushed thoughts out of my mind, I allowed myself to relax. I searched for not emptiness, but thorough and complete singularity. Udder surrender to everything around me.

I ceased worrying about those that were going to die. I no longer fretted over the consequences of my failure. I omitted fear, for losing, I omitted love, for those I feared losing, and my hate, for those who would lose me my loved ones.

I opened everything I was to everything that is.

I let the entire universe in, and my entire mind out.

And so it happened.

I could see between the smallest spaces, the smallest instances of time. I was open to the world, and it was open to me.

My eyes flew open, and I ran. I ran and I ran and I ran. My feet moved through the dirt, and the trees began to move. The world was opening. The universe was opening. I let my mind unravel further, and I could feel these thick vines of reality slipping from my body, trying to hold on.

The world continued to shift before my eyes.

Reality continued to slip, I continued to run.

The ground rippled beneath my feet.

A bright white light opened before me, and the whole world left from view.

I continued to run, to move between the molecules and the atoms and the stars and the thoughts of every single mind.

I focused on a single mind, one single soul that would flutter it's whimper across the eternal ocean of raging memories, ideas, and emotions. Eventually, throughout my searching, I could feel my thoughts resonate with whom I was looking for.

So I dove back into reality, ready to die to try and save those I loved.

(And I did save them, though not without a heavy price. Nothing is free.)